Living Like I’m Going To Die!

Be in love with your life, every minute of it!  Jack Kerouac

Are you truly in love with your life?  Every minute of it?  Kerouac’s words resonate with me, and I can honestly say, I truly am in love with my life, every minute of it!

Is life perfect?  Absolutely not!  If it was, welllllll, that would just be so boring!  Is life adventurous, around every corner, bend and turn?  Absolutely it is!  And that’s what it makes it the most amazing ride ever!  And the only ride you’ll ever be on that the end destination is one that is guaranteed to us all . . . death.

I have had a hard time accepting that one destination . . . death, the very word itself, scares me.  It is a word that has so much sadness attached to it, and so much of the unknown.  When will we die?  Where do we go after we die?  What awaits us?  These are all questions with so many different answers for so many of us in this great big world.  And I absolutely love love love that we each are able to have our own beliefs on where our destination ultimately takes us . . . I love the freedom of choice 🙂

I have seen death and I have felt death . . . my first experience with death was my Zio (Uncle in Italian 😉 ).  He was an amazing man; one of those Italian Zio’s that you love because of how genuine and authentic he was.  I remember I was twelve years old, and I didn’t understand the concept of death, but just understood that it was concrete, and that I would never see my Zio again.  This shook my belief system, and just made me feel empty.  As years passed, and family members and friends died, I started realizing that us humans are definitely not as “untouchable” as I had thought.

I think the hardest part of losing someone, isn’t having to say goodbye, but rather learning to live without them.  Always try filling the void, the emptiness that’s left inside your heart when they go.  sd.

A childhood friend of mine passed away a few days ago, and now in my forties (yes this will be the one and only time I admit my age . . . maybe 😉 ), I am grateful that she gave me the reminder to live life to it’s fullest, and truly keep being in love with my life!  Every moment that passes, we have a choice to make . . . will it be to choose happiness and let things go, will it be to choose misery and let everything bother us, or will it be to choose a balance between living with happiness and misery, and accepting it all as lessons we get to go through?  I choose the balance of life itself . . . I love love love choosing to be happy, yes choosing to be happy.  Some days you wake up and stub your toe . . . what do you do?  You could curse and be miserable the rest of the day because darn it, that bed post got in your way, and the world is miserable, and why did this happen, and blah blah blah!  Orrrrrr you can choose to see it as the stubbing of your toe was a little reminder to show you that you’re alive and well, and that thank goodness it was your toe and not your knee cap and that you can still walk and get to where you’re needing to go . . . and still appreciate all the moments!  It is amazing how one moment of your day can shift all emotions . . . happy or miserable!  You get the choice!  So today, and onwards, I choose to honour my friend who has passed away, and all those who have left us far too soon, and choose happiness . . . happiness for the rest of my days 🙂

Death is very real, and one day I will face it too.  Let’s hope not anytime soon because this girl here is still wanting to make waves and move mountains soooooooo world, hold on to me a little longer, I’m coming for you 😉  As Margaret Atwood stated, “In the end, we’ll all become stories.” I want to make sure mine is a good one!!!

Love love love, LC

 

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